all neuroses, all the time

oh my garsh, it has been a week and a half since i last posted.

i actually typed a long and entertaining post one day at work, but the computer is so ancient that it wigged out and lost everything. so i was disheartened and gave up.

so i will be in england in a month- freaky! not looking forward to the plane trip, as 13 hours on a plane is a slice of hell for me. but, a necessary evil i guess.

um, me and the hunny went and saw "hannibal" last night, and while i can recommend it i also think it is the most depraved thing i have ever seen. yes, even more so than passolini's "salo."
i know, i know, there is no comparison. but here is my reason: "hannibal" is the first movie i have ever seen that made me:

a.) nauseous
b.) paranoid
c.) cold-sweat
d.) almost faint

actually, it is all of the above. i literally had to put my head between my legs and deep breathe during that last scene. you know the one.

now, i am an old pro at violent or gory movies. i love them, always have. and nothing - not "dead alive," "evil dead," "dawn of the dead," etc. - has ever so totally repulsed me. something about the violence in "hannibal" set me on edge, and by the time of the dinner party at the end i truly felt the theater spinning and things going tingly and black. FREAKY, huh?

it was like an arty snuff film. sort of. so much of it just so gawd-damn unfortunate and unnecessary.

at any rate, go see it.

okay, nighty night. more later, sooner than last post. i promise.

oh, and go check out my pal simdy. and stalk him, too.
posted by bruce at 11:18 PM

YAY! MY HUNNY IS HOME!
(back from a business conference in california. he has been gone for 8 days.)

YAY!!!

more later.

b.
posted by bruce at 9:14 PM

jeez.

i don't know what brought all that on last night.

i mean, i know, but how strange that it was only the fourth entry in this very public space and already i'm sharing.... probably a bit too much. hmm.

well, anyway.

it is a beautiful day this afternoon, it looks like spring; i'm going to take the dog to the park and let him chase squirrels and whiz to his heart's content.

posted by bruce at 11:43 AM

i have been hit by this horrible thick black wave of sorrow, seemingly fueled by guilt and nostalgia.
i am missing so many people right now- family, old friends, lovers, etc.

i am thinking too hard about missed opportunities and wrong choices.

should i go to london? why doesn't it make sense all of the sudden?

it is past midnight here, and it is the saddest and loneliest place in the world.


b.


posted by bruce at 12:43 AM

well.

it just so happens i am in the midst of planning a spur-of-the-moment trip to london, and i think that as i am handling the arrangements i just might convince the hubby to go with me. he likes it when i look like i am handling responsibilities, it gives him faith in me.

i think when we first got together he thought i was invincible- tough talking, confident, and a quick wit with common sense. how soon he learned i'm really a big crybaby pussy-boy when the going gets tough. ah well, live and learn. anything to make me not seem like a helpless housewife, lying around eating bon-bons and watching vh-1 behind the music marathons. mr. puritan work ethic can't stand that.

at any rate, it all seems to be coming together just fine. i will know in a few days.

er...

WOOOOOO!!!!


posted by bruce at 5:27 PM

okay, i'm back. like 10 minutes later. but i feel like i "get" this whole blogger process now.

i would like to say hello to david sim now, who probably is still giddy from the impromptu trans-atlantic call he received 9 hours ago.

but honey, when that OCD kicks in, i'm a man with a mission!

b.
posted by bruce at 11:11 AM

well, hello.

i've not ever really kept a journal before. i mean, i would start one and go full steam for a week or two and then get bored and stop. which i might do here, who knows?

at any rate, i'm giving it a shot-

yep.

sigh.

(sound of crickets chirping off in the distance)

um, more later.

b.
posted by bruce at 10:54 AM